[story of a girl]

breakxthexstars

lesbaleine

12/14/05 02:54 pm

i got a new computer, email, and screen name. (for my vision accommodatios, no i'm not that rich to be able to afford a new one.) anyway, my new email is: breakxthexstars@aol.com and my new im is breakxthexstars, so everyone add me. :)

blah. depression is killing me. it took two hours to get out of bed this morning. yes, two. this is bad, really bad. i can't seem to get better. i'm breaking. i have therapy tonight and i don't even know what to say. no words can encompass how depressed i feel. words can't describe the pain raging through me or the severity of this hell. no words can even begin to express how bad i want to cut, nor do they bring light to how this eating disorder is really going. -sigh- i just don't see an end to this, other than you know what.

fuck. how did i get this so far down?

• Current Music: hoobastank-running away
• Current Mood: depressed

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• delfinodigrazia

  12/14/05 09:48 pm (UTC)

  

  :::hugs:::

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• orange_peacock

  12/14/05 11:16 pm (UTC)

  

  Duly added.
  
  Wow, two hours...does anyone have any new ideas about how to help you with this, or are you on your own? :-(

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• paperdollkittie

  12/14/05 11:52 pm (UTC)

  

  oh baby... i'm really worried about you.
  
  i know you really don't want to, but i think you need to go to the hospital.
  
  too many people love you becca. and none of us want to lose you.
  
  your in my thoughts day and night. and your christmas present may not get there by christmas because we're having a lot of money issues right now, plus we're moving into the apartment this weekend. but its coming.
  
  i love you baby. always and forever.
  
  -megan

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• newgrrl

  12/14/05 11:57 pm (UTC)

  

  Becca,
  
  Aww honey. I wish I could love you all better. I am thinking about you, and sending lots of love.
  
  ::hugs::

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